Balancing my Daily Calories

Man, I was DRAGGING today.   I just could not get enough sleep last night.   I can't wait to hit the hay tonight.  But first... blogging my food.

I didn't get any real exercise today, I was beat from all the walking yesterday.  So I'm hoping to get a good nights rest and be chipper tomorrow.

Okay - Food:
bfast (520)
1 pkg better oats - 170
1/2c raw oats - 150
coffee x 2 - 60
chiobhani Peach yogurt - 140
lunch (512)
1c rice - 242
1c Tammy's dog food - 230
1c Salad greens - 10
1tsp dressing - 30
coke zero mini (half) - 0
snack (360)
1 pkg hot chocolate - 110
coffee - 30
5 gummies - 50
1 pkg better oats - 170
dinner (700)
5 raw almonds - 35
2.5 Jennie O turkey Bratwursts - 425
2 slices toast - 100
5T yellow mustard - 0
1 1/4 c peas - 140

total calories: 2,084

Funny.  I'm REALLY glad that I did this today.  This is one of the better calories days I've had.  But this afternoon I was totally ravenous. I just couldn't figure it out. I felt almost out of control hungry. I had my "poor mans mocha latte", then I had some gummie candy, I really felt like I was on the verge of freaking out. 

But looking at this I realize that my problem is that I had TOO LITTLE food in the morning.   My lunch was too small.   I need to make sure that I get in a big breakfast and getting into the 600's for those meals so that I don't have horrible afternoons of snack attacks. 

At dinner tonight I was only going to have 2 sausages, but then there was just one left and we were hungry so we split it.   However, if I had made better lunch and breakfast choices, I wouldn't have had to eat so much in the evening.

So... note to self.   BETTER BREAKFAST.

Its the old adage..... eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a lord, and dinner like a pauper.


15 weeks until my Iceland trip.  The rest of this week is for the Ponies!!!

Friday Food

Today was pretty good food wise, I am still very pleased with my hitting my goal weight today! Weee!  I took this afternoon off, as I had to go and renew my drivers license, OMG what a mess that was.   There is 2 hours of my life I'll never get back.  However, I am now renewed, and ready to rock and roll behind the wheel.

I am excited for the next time this has to happen and how much different my picture will look.

Okay - dog got a short walk this evening as it was pouring earlier, and we are tired now.  Quick 8 blocks, and back in the house.

Food Today:
bfast (610)
sm banana - 90
Egg Cheese biscuit - 350
coffee - 30
yogurt - 140
snack (120)
2x praline - 120
lunch (668)
1can progresso light new england clam chowder - 200
4 slices bread - 200
2 slices swiss cheese - 140
1T icbinb - 45
5 raw almonds - 35
1tsp peanut butter - 48
snack (233)
Grande non fat latte - 133
Starbucks fuit chew things - 100
Dinner (660)
gnocchi - 320
1.5 Jenni-O spicy italian sausage - 220
1tsp Pesto - 55
1.5c spinach - 65

Total Calories: 2,291

This is a bit higher then I have been eating, but totally in range.  Lunchtime I was stuffed, and these aren't my normal eating times, so I had already forgotten that I had a banana before I went to work when I was tracking my calories at the office.   Lunch lasted me through until 4pm.  I had a coffee and the fruit snack while waiting to pick up the Husbeast at the office, since I took off this afternoon with the car.

Once again, SUGAR, invaded.   However, on a good note - the damn King Cake from yesterday was waiting for me on my desk again when I got in.  I let it sit there most of the morning before I just took it into the office kitchen to let the "wolves" fall on it.  That was the last that I thought about that damn thing.  I should have done that way sooner.

Right, I have to get to bed early. I am going to get up and take the dog walking in the morning, I have a brunch and pedi with some girlfriends tomorrow at 11, so I'm going to have to get my tail moving in the morning to get everything in.

Mid-week slump / C2 5K - W3D1

I turned the frown upside down today.  This was not a great morning for me, ass earlier post, but then I managed to get through it. I went into the building stairwell - run up a flight of stairs, walked down and thought good thoughts!

The real bad news.... I did my Week 3 Day 1 of the Couch to 5K today. Finished and came into the house and realized that my hip was totally screwed again. Its like it was a week and a half ago.  I don't know what it is. Maybe its the pavement - I didn't seem to have this big an issue with it when I'm running on the dirt.  I did 3mile on Sunday night (walking) and it was fine. 

So, I'm going to take this as a sign that running in the 'hood is not going to happen for me, until I get a little lighter, stronger and fitter.   I`ve got to make a change, and that is that I'm going to have to go to the gym, or go to the park.  I know which one the dog would like better!  

Okay - food:

bfast (520)
egg cheese biscuit - 350
coffee - 30
Chiobani lemon yogurt - 140
lunch (503)
3 slices double fiber bread - 150
4 slices swiss cheese - 280
1 lr tomato - 33
1T mayo - 40
Snack (480)
hot chocolate satchel - 110
Coffee - 30
Oatmeal packages x2 - 340
Dinner (385)
6oz ground lean turkey w/ tagine spiced - 213
3/4c Mixed veggies - 60
1/2c onion - 12
1/2 acorn squash - 100

total calories today:  1,888

TODAY I HAD NO CANDY!!!!!!!   Victory for me.. and you Icelandic Pony(ies) of the Day!

Back to Training!

Weights today!!!!    I was joined by a girlfriend of mine as we went to a session on power/weightlifting today.  I didn't know how I was going to hold up in the hip department, but it was excellent.  Once I'm done here, it's going to get iced and stretched out again.  

We were three from 11 - 1pm  lifting with lots of other people, so it was low rep, high on speed and power.   Great full body workout, and I'm tired!   Lunch that was provided, it was low on nutrition and high on calories, but since we were working so hard I'm not going to be too concerned about it.

The Husbeast made an amazing breakfast for us.  eggs cooked in tomatoes with toast.   SO delish.

Tonight we have dinner out with friends for a birthday - we are going to go for sushi.  My plan is to make sure to eat the leftovers from yesterday before we go, so that I'm slightly full, and then drink a LOT of water/tea to help keep me filled up while I'm there.   But I'm looking forward to some spicy tuna, sashimi and edemame!


Food (so far):
bfast
1 lrg tomato - 33
1 egg - 78
.4 oz cheese - 36
2 slices toast - 100
1T icbinb - 45
1tsp peanut butter - 47
coffee - 30
snack
chocolate chip cookie lara bar - 230
lunch
3 med slices pepperoni pizza - 850
snack
coffee - 30
pre dinner
2oz Chicken breast - 85
1T franks Red hot wing sauce - 0
1/4c cauliflower - 6
2 beets - 44

Total - 1,614


My estimation for this evening:

3 pc spicy tuna roll - 200
2 pc california roll - 75
4 salmon sashimi - 156
1/2c edemame - 29
1 glass champagne - 78

estimated total: 538

so if this happens it will be approx 2,152

So that is what I'm shooting for!!

Friday catch up

It was Friday yesterday, and I had a friend coming to spend the night so I didn't get a chance to get on the puter!

I had my second chiro adjustment at noon yesterday and everything was mucho better!  My neck is still getting back into it, but my hip is so much better!    I actually trotted down the stairs this morning without thinking!

That's progress.

Friday Food:
bfast
egg, cheese biscuit - 350
coffee - 30
lunch
12inch roasted chicken sub - 545
22 snapea peas - 130
1 sugar cookie - 75
snack
44 snapea crisps - 260
diet coke - 0
5 gummies - 50
dinner
5oz skiness boneless chicken breast grilled - 214
2T franks red hot wing suace - 0
3 med beets - 66
1/2c cauliflower - 13
1/4T evoo - 30
snack
1strawberry - 4
2 blackberries - 4
2 raspberries - 4
1 liberte coconut yogurt - 270

Total calories: 2,045

Not great, but not terrible.  I let my snacking slide in the afternoon and I know why.   I didn't each lunch until past 1pm.   After breakfast at 8.30, that is just WAY too long to let it go.  My chiro appointment took forever and instead of being done at 2.15, I was done at 12.50, and that really was too long to wait for food.  

I got back to work and inhaled my sandwich, accepted a cookie that I shouldn't have and went on a hunt for food.   So better prep for this next time - then no "hangry" tammy food seeking.  

Other then that, I'm quite pleased with how I'm going. Things are well on thier way.

Back to Normal

Finally!    I'm feeling human again.  The Husbeast said that I was asleep with the click of the light last night. I'll take his word for it, because I certainly don't remember!!!  :)

This morning I felt great; I've been walking normally all day and negotiated the stairs with no pain.  So Happy.  So Very Happy.  Saturday I have a day of exercise with a friend planned out, some of it might be too much for me, but I'll warm up and see what I have to give.

Saturday we have a birthday dinner out for sushi.  I'm excited, I've not had sushi in a long time, and a day of working will make that all the better!

Lunch today was pure yum!  I dont know what it is, but there is something about a PB&J sammich with a glass of milk that is just soooooo happy!

Food was great today. Calories are on track.  

Food:
Better Oats Chai spice package - 170
1/2 raw oats - 150
coffee - 30
(350)
lunch
PB&J BABY!!!!
4slices Natures own double fiber bread - 200
2T natual peanut butter - 190
1T whole fruit jam - 60
1c 2% milk - 130
(580)
snack
better oats oatmeal - plum spice - 170
(170)
dinner
5 small corn tortillas -  225
5oz Ground Turkey, onion, blackbean soup mix - 255
1/2c pico de gallo - 20
(500)
snack
5 raw almonds - 35

Total claories: 1,635

Old Habits

I'm suffering. My hip is still not right...and now my neck is all seized up from walking/sitting and sleeping in funny positions.  I'm an unhappy camper.

Same sad story, different day.  My chiro appointment is tomorrow and I'm very happy about that. I'm going to need a few more appointments this week to try and get right.

I have to keep reminding myself......I'm not as young as I was, my body is going to fight against changes, its going to fight against activity, and old injuries are going to keep coming up.

AND....That is why I HAVE to keep changing. Carrying all this weight is what is giving me all the pain that I am suffering right now.   Its not the running, its not the kettle bell... its the fat.  This fat is agony.

The fat is how I got to here... I got tempted (it's easy, I'm tired, I'm sore...) and went out for lunch.  Fish tacos. I did not do the math beforehand.  I did not do the math on purpose or I wouldn't have gone... and so we have this.

bfast
egg cheese biscuit - 350
coffee - 30
lunch
2oz corn chips - 277
2oz salsa - 15
grilled fish tacos - 969
snack
diet coke - 0
dinner
1/2 roasted chicken - 480
4T Franks red hot wing sauce - 0
3/4 c brussle sprouts - 42

total calories: 2,163

And that is why I got to over 300lbs.  I used to eat out like that EVERY lunch.   Lesson... I would be much happier right now if I had gone to Which Wich, or come home and eaten grilled cheese.

Old habits die hard... and Tammy... DO NOT FORGET that a small measure of success does not give liberty to return to old habits.

Friday Night Rest

Limping around today. I have definitely overdone my running and weights. I guess I underestimated the amount of stairs that I do everyday at home and the extra stress that gives me on top of the rest of it. We have a three floor townhome, each floor is 15 steps up and I’m up and down those bad boys all the evening when I’m in. My left hip has staged a revolt. It is not happy.

Tonight I’m going to let the Husbeast walk the dog, and I’m going to ice my hip, rest and relax and see if this inflammation/pain won’t go away. Tonight is prime TV night…Kitchen Nightmares, Grimm and Fringe, so it’s the perfect time for laying on the couch suffering.

In happy news. Eating is really going well. I’ve tried calorie counting before, but always ended up getting bogged down with tracking the calories, fats, proteins, and carbs. It ended up being so much work that I just would quit. 

There is an unquantifiable difference this time with my attitude and weight. I’m not sure what exactly it is, and I don’t want to spook it away by talking about it, but I feel different. More resolute. More determined. More “when, not if”. I’m changing, my body is responding. I’m … happy instead of stressed out. There have been ups and downs – I weigh myself most mornings, but instead of seeing a +2 and crying, then seeing a -4 and cheering, I’m happier all around – there is a downwards trend and I’m doing the right things. Eating less, moving more, enjoying life. 

Today at lunch I was invited out at the last minute. I was planning on going home to eat beans and toast, but landed at the pub. I had water, and a BLT toasted on sourdough. The sandwich was small, but it’s the $4.00 lunch special. It came with a little cup of coleslaw, which was horrible. So… I DIDN”T EAT IT. A revelation for someone like me so scarfs everything put in front of her. I just didn’t like it, so I didn’t eat it. The toast was really thin, there was very little to the sandwich and I was pleased.

Food today:

Bfast

Egg Cheese biscuit – 350

Coffee – 30
Snack
Oatmeal (spiced plum) – 170
Coffee - 30
Lunch
2 thin slices of Sourdough – 175
2 slices Tomato – 7
1 tsp mayo - 30
1 lettuce leaf - 5
2 slice bacon – 92
1T coleslaw - 11
Snack
Oatmeal – 170
1/4c nude oats - 75
Dinner
½ med Acorn squash - 112
½ box Couscous – 375
Snack
1/2c ice cream - 200

1,832

 Perfection! I even had room for some ice cream today!! Rest and iceing my hip is in order!

Couch 2 5K - Day 5

My running buddy is sick so I was on my own for this one. 

I ended up running an extra set (1.5min running, 2min walking). I thought that I might have "fat fingered" the screen  accidentally because I was behind where I would normally be when finishing.  After the extra set was done, I remembered that I had to do a 1 block detour at the start, so I was actually ahead!  All Good!

Distance today was 3.05km!   Not too shabby.   However, my left hip is killing me. :(  Ahh the life of joints on an obese person - they are bearing load for the weight of two right now, and this hip is just not happy.   Of course, riding a desk all day as a job is not helpful.   I've got to get it stretched out and I am getting aggressive on the foam roller tonight!!!

I'm going to give the glutes and IT Band a good going over and that should help a lot.  Also...Hello Ibuprofen my sweet sweet lover.  Come to Tammy.

Food today was good today.   I'm really pleased with my more conscious eating, particularly at the office and in the evenings.  No mindless grazing.

Food:

bfast
Liberte yogurt - strawberry - 270
coffee - 30
Lunch (yesterdays dinner leftovers)
1c savoy cabbage (steamed) - 34
1c Kale (steamed) - 17
1 Italian spicy sausage - 360
1T HP sauce - 60
2 med Red potatoes - 308
1 Coke Zero (mini) - 0
Snack
coffee - 30
3 gummies - 30
Dinner
1 can Amy's tomato bisque - 360
4 slices Natures Own double fiber bread - 200
2 slices Provolone cheese - 160
1T icbinb - 45

Total calories: 1,904

About 100 calories more then I was aiming for, but I'm very pleased with my choices today.  It wasn't burgers and chips.  I was thinking of only having a single sandwich with my soup, but I was actually hungry, so I had two.  Next time I'll make three and split one with the Husbeast.   Why didn't I think of THAT earlier.   rawr.   Time to get funky on the floor (after some blog reading!).

Obligitory Fat Pictures

It was pretty painful scraping these together. But, to change my future I have to be willing to look into the past and see what I need to change.  

I wanted my wedding to be my most beautiful day.  I am at least 3x the size of my mother. The dress is a 22, and I had on the tightest spanx that I could find, and I nearly split the arse out of that dress in the reception.  Its sad to look back and see this. But I don't want this for my future, so I have to. 

Attempting to hide my gut by pressing up against the Husbeast.  Not very successful.

I'm so unhappy about getting my picture taken in this next one. I remember it well. I'm sucking in as hard as I can, which is why the pinched smile, plus I don't want to show my teeth, lest my extra chin get even more extra.

my legs....

they feel like they have been chewed by a rabid wolf.  Sitting to pee is agony, but it means I'm getting stronger.   Running tonight should be interesting.  It will look like I have something lodged where the sun don't shine.