Monday Long Weekend!!

Ahhhh Long weekends are the best.  

Yesterday we had a big night with friends over and lots of food.  I need to make a better plan before we do that again, I don't need to eat 3.5 slices of pizza.  that is just crazy talk.

Today has been better.  Food is good.  I got convinced to go out for lunch again, which was poor on my part, but I'm not going to let that ruin my day.  She did try to get me to go out for dinner with them again this evening, but I told her that my diet doesn't allow for eating out that much in one day, so we would have to pass.  Felt quite proud of that actually.

I have 50lbs to go right now, and that's a big goal for 3 months. I can't be waisting it on eating out when we have a fridge full of great veggies that we bought yesterday!

Husbeast is at the office today, so I'll be making dinner and I'm about to go have a shower when this is done. 

I walked the dog for 30minutes at a good clip this morning. Hip is feeling good.  No soreness from the walking.   I then did my weights for the day.  Very proud.

Bent over row:
right arm: 3 sets 10 reps
left arm: 3 sets 10 reps
Military press
right arm: 3 sets 5 reps, 7 reps, 8 reps
left arm: 3 sets  5 reps, 7 reps, 8 reps
Upright row - 2 handed:
3 sets - 10 reps
Bicep curls:
right arm: 3 sets 4 reps
left arm: 3 sets 4 reps

I have my food planned out for the day, so I'm going to post it now so that I don't have to worry - this IS what I'm going to do for the day and that is that.

****O.M.G.  I just went to the website for La Mad and looked at the calories.  Sweet zombie jebuz, good think I worked out today.   That... is crazy.   I'm going to have to really buckle down this week.  REALLY.BUCKLE.DOWN.   Yeah, eating out is just really not worth it at all.


 Food:
bfast (370)
2 packages better oats - 340
coffee- 30
lunch (1625)
"La Madeline" cup of Tomato soup - 270
Spinach quiche - 1010
bread - 100
butter - 45
lemon tart - 200
snack (30)
coffee - 30
dinner (702)
1c rice - 242
2c "Tammys Dog food" - 460*

total calories: 2,697

*Tammy's dog food is - 2 onions, 1 pkg Jennie O ground turkey (97/3), pepper, taco seasoning, 3c frozen mixed veg. Looks horrible, tastes great!!!

Sunday Pizza night

We had a bunch of friends over for pizza on Sunday - I knew that it was going to be calorific, so I managed to keep my day of eating tightly under control, and then over indulged at dinner.  Which seems to be the theme of the weekend.

So yesterday was a big calorie day....yikes!   I have some hard work to do this week coming.

Food:
bfast (200)
1 better oats oatmeal - 170
Coffee - 30
lunch (616)
2 eggs - 156
1 jennie-o spicy sausage - 160
green onion - 5
2 slices toast - 100
HP - 60
coffee - 30
1/2 snack bag of chocolate mistrals - 105
snack (220)
1 coffee - 30
2 fat free gingerbread cookies - 190
dinner (1585)
salad - 20
dressing - 60
1 slice cheese pizza - thin crust - 383
1 slice spinach pizza thin crust - 162
1/2 slice meat pizza - 350
1 med cupcake - 350

total calories: 2,621

Back at the weights!

Today I actually managed to get in some weight training. It wasn't much, but its more then not doing anything!

Work today was hell.   Someone brought in a King Cake and well. Yep, I ate some.  three effing slices.  Gawds. Its that sugar crush. I knew better then to have a single slice... an hour later I had justified three.  Keep working Tammy.  Keep working. 

I'm proud that I stayed in my calorie range today, I came home, walked, did a little workout, and ate a reasonable dinner.  Even though my mind wanted to snack, I didn't let it. I keep saying, "my stomach isn't growling, so I can't be hungry". 

After work I took the dog out for a walk, did about 15min worth - my hip is again, getting better, but I don't trust it and every time I have to get up and down the stairs I'm fearing the worst.  Rawr.  This thing is so frustrating.

I have also yelled at the Husbeast tonight, we are both in a foul mood, and its the little things that are getting under our skin.  Taxes, work, housecleaning, food... of course, I'm mad that I'm not thin and perfect and this is "of course" his fault. Gawds, seriously, I must be getting close to my period, I am a GRUMPY BEAR!

Mostly I'm worried that I am not going to make my first goal... and that it will be because I ATE STUPID A$$ CAKE.   WHY DID I DO THAT?!?!?!?!?!?  I'm going to be super annoyed at myself tomorrow if I blew it on cake today.

anyway...onto more interesting things.

Weights:  I only have one 25lb dumbbell.  So all these are done 1 arm at a time, except as noted.

Bent over row (R/L): 10, 10, 10, 10
Military Press (R/L): 5, 6, 7, 5
2 arm upright front row: 8, 8, 8, 8
bicep curls (R/L): 4, 4, 4, 4

Yeah....my curls were pretty weak, but its a start!

Food:
bfast (740)
1.5c Dorset fruit & seed muesli - 630
Skim Milk - 80
Coffee - 30
Lunch (616)
1 can Heinz beans - 300
2 slice toast - 100
2 eggs - 156
1T HP Sauce - 60
Snack (440)
coffee - 30
King Cake - 410
Dinner (347)
3c mixed greens - 24
1/2c chick peas - 143
1 hard boiled egg - 78
1/2c shredded beets - 37
3 slices cucumber - 3
1/3c red peppers - 10
1T Parmesan cheese - 22
1T Avocado vinaigrette - 30

Total Calories: 2,143


No pony tonight.  :(  I'm not in the mood.

Valentines Day!! I got MEAT!!

Ahhh today, the day of lovers.... The day of chocolate.....  The day of MEAT!!!!!!

I got a lovely card, a gift card to DSW, and dinner.... cooked at home with me and the hubby this evening, and he knows how to cook!!  Some really nice surf and turf.  Grassfed beef sirloin, and atlantic salmon.   YUM!!!!

That was followed with some (nasty) low fat ice cream with cherries, and a few pieces of very nice dark chocolate.

I was supposed to get back on the running wagon, and I didn't. Tomorrow I'm going to have to give'er on the make-up run and start back into my weights.  Yikes!   I better get some good rest.

Okay, food today:

Bfast (580)
1 pkg better oats - plum spice - 170
1/2c raw oats - 150
coffee - 30
Apple Cinn Chiobani greek yogurt - 120
1 small cupcake - 65
1 sm bite fudge - 45
Lunch (713)
2 eggs - 156
green onion - 5
cheese - 160
2 tortillas - 300
1/2c salsa - 20
1 slice bread - 50
1/2T icbinb - 22
Snack (345)
5 raw almonds - 35
Redenbokers lime salt mini bag popcorn - 220
Diet Dr. Pepper - 0
2x small Fudge - 90
Dinner (500)
3c mixed salad - 20
1T dressing - 35
4oz Salmon (no skin) - 233
4oz Steak - 212
dessert (374)
1.25c low fat ice cream - 74  (wow it was really NOT great).
1/2c cherries - 100
3 pc chocolate - 200

Total Calories:  2,513

G.D.  I'm pleased with this.   I had a couple of not great moments with the valentines fudge at my desk, but dinner was amazing, and I thought that with all the little indulgences that I would be WAY up there.   Meat to the rescue.  

Note to self:  THIS IS NOT A LICENSE TO EAT CRAP.   Give it a rest for the remainder of the week.

Tomorrow I have to get back into lifting and running.  Then I can really start to enjoy myself.

Hungry Monkey on my Back!

Today was a whole lot better.   Phew, cause I really didn't want to keep going on that train.

I didn't get any exercise in, but I had my chiro appointment and I'm feeling better from that.  I'm going to run again tomorrow and then I'm going to try weights on Friday.   Lots more stretching and icing.  I'm on the mend.

Food today was a lesson about sugar and eating like that.  I had this hungry monkey on my back all day and I couldn't stop thinking about food.  It was crazy.   I did good, but to help myself I ate more (more good stuff) then I really wanted to, just to try and stop the "racket" ... ice cream ice cream ice cream.....

I ate a lot of my dinner and after couldn't have eaten any ice cream. Once I felt that, it dropped from my mind and I enjoyed some quiet time watching NOVA and petting the dog.  Much better.

Food:
bfast
egg cheese biscuit - 350
coffee - 30
lunch
Which Wich - buffalo chicken 7inch sammich - 479 (YUM and under 500!!!!!!)
- no cheese, wheat bread, buffalo chicken, yellow mustard, Buffalo sauce, horseradish, red onion,
lettuce, tomato, pepperocinis, cucumber, bell peppers, black olives)
snack
5 gummies - 50
1 package better oats oatmeal (spiced plum) - 170
1/4 c raw oats - 75
"poor mans mocha" - 130  (hot chocolate package, coffee, creamer)
snack 2
Lara bar - gingersnap - 220
dinner
1c rice - 242
2c "Tammys Dog food" - 460*

total calories: 2,206

Now this is more calories then I would like to get in a day, however I did manage to not do a LOT of things that I thought about today.... Soda, chocolate bar (300+), second breakfast (350), chocolate shake (750) at Which Wich, ice cream (300+) after dinner....

A larabar after getting all the grocery shopping done after work is a pretty good treat on the scale of things that I thought about getting. 

So all in all, I think that this was a pretty good recovery day!

*Tammy's dog food is - 2 onions, 1 pkg Jennie O ground turkey (97/3), pepper, taco seasoning, 3c frozen mixed veg.  Looks horrible, tastes great!!!

Yikes!

Will power has been in short supply around here these last few days and I need to get on blogging it so that I can just MOVE ON.  Gawds.   Sugar Salt Sugar Salt.  Its a freaking roller coaster.

Today I went for my first run back on the program.  My running buddy has happily let us move back to re-do week 2 of the couch 2 5K program.  My hip is still sore, but not like it was.  I felt better at the end of the run, then I did at the beginning.  That's progress.  I've iced it out tonight, and I'm going to get on the foam roller and take care of it tonight with that too.

Food.... has been a DISASTER.   The birthday dinner was the first step and I should have really stuck to my guns.  I guess I'm going to have to learn that disappointing other people is better then disappointing myself.... this is a hard long lesson to learn.

Monday:
egg cheese biscuit - 350
coffee - 30
2c Amys low fat Butternut Squash Soup - 200
4 slices bread - 200
2 slices cheese - 160
1T icbinb - 45
5 raw almonds - 35
1 package better oats - 170
3 brownies - 450
Sm bag movie theater popcorn w/ butter - 650
1 package twizzlers - 600

total calories - 2,890
I was doing great until the afternoon and the brownies landed on my desk.  I reached for one, and managed to eat three.  

Tuesday was not that much better:
yogurt - 270
coffee x2 - 60
cake - 300
Penna Pasta - 300
Pasta sauce - 70
veg - 45
Almonds - 35
package better oats - 170
14c raw oats - 75
2 brownies - 300
handful of candy - 100
Roasted Chicken - 420
1.5c mixed veg - 100

todays total: 2,245

better, but the sugar kick has got to stop.  I've been pounding the water and I've got my focus back for tomorrow.  

Chiro appointment, oatmeal breakfast, chiro at lunch - subway sandwich - good dinner.   I can do it.

Salty Sunday

SALTY !!!!!!!   Yesterday's lunch and last nights sushi dinner turned ugly with 3 glasses of champagne, and surprise dessert.   Today I am bloated and swollen with the massive salt and carb intake.

Weight In:  an unsurprising 303.4

I also spent most of today helping a friend with her pre for a babyshower.

Yesterdays dinner gave way to a carb-a-rific Sunday.  Bleck.  That's why I hate to go out to dinner like that.   But, it has to be done some days.

food today:
bfast
2 eggs - 155
3/4c Turkey black bean mix - 200
2 slices toast - 100
coffee - 30
lunch
2 slices bread - 100
1T peanut butter - 95
1T jam - 50
snack
1 grande skinny latte - 133
1 pumpkin bread - 390 (??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! holy cr@p!)
snack 2
1 vanilla cupcake - 380 (*sigh*)
dinner
3 Heart smart bisquick pancakes -  325
2T maple syrup - 200
1T icbinb - 45
1/2c mixed berries - 35

total today:  2,238

So eating today was carbs, carbs, carbs, carbs and carbs...... great.   buh,,,, I can't wait to get back to veggies and lighter dinners this week.

Celebration of a single sausage

yes... that is right.  I'm celebrating a sausage.   Last night the Husbeast and I talked about what we were going to have for dinner.  We settled on bubble and squeak (potatoes, kale and cabbage) and sausages.   Yes...sausageS!   Until this morning when I took them out of the freezer and glanced at the calories, so that I could plan my day and saw that a SINGLE SAUSAGE was 360 calories.   Sweet zombie jebuz.   That's my entire breakfast!! 

So I said, "Self, you can do this, but only if you have 1 sausage".  I am unhappy to admit that typically it was 2.5 sausages... which is a gut expanding 900 calories.  Tammy... you didn't get to 300lbs by eating carrots and celery...where did you think that it came from??

So, I planned my meals out in the morning and saw that I was going to have to be very good all day if I was even going to be able to eat my single sausage.

And I was!!!!!

I would also like to note "to self" that I wore a pair of pants that I had been previously avoiding without admitting why (didn't fit) and today, they buttoned up comfortabley.  There you go.

Food today:

bfast
Egg, cheese & biscuit - 350
Coffee - 30
lunch
2 better oats packages (Chai & Cin spice) - 340
1/4c plain oats - 75
coffee - 30
snack
3 m&m's - 30 
dinner
1c savoy cabbage (steamed) - 34
1c Kale (steamed) - 17
1 tsp icbinb - 23
1 Itallian spicy sausage - 360
1T HP sauce - 60
2 med Red potatoes - 308
Coke Zero (mini) - 0

Total: 1,657

WOOWOO!!!!!   I had a single sausage for dinner and I'm proud.  That single sausage did just fine. I didn't die of starvation (what?!) and it was delish and the right portion and it filled me up.

Here is to changing behaviors.

Exercise:

This was not as good today. I've been foot sore, hip sore, tired and lack luster all day and last night.  I skipped my weights today and opted for a light walk with the dog, and I'm going to go and do some stretching, then read and hope to be asleep before 10.30 tonight. 

Running tomorrow!  Going to be good and rested!  

Falling back into old habits

 

Today was my day of rest, and I was needing it. 

My joints are sore, my muscles are sore, my head is sore.  I was looking forward to a fun day of meeting up with some friends to have Dim sum and celebrate the Chinese New Year (Jan 23... Year of the Black Water Dragon). 

But, I think that really, I was already making excuses for how much I was going to eat.  I'm guessing at my calories for dim sum because I don't really know.  I certainly controlled myself more then I would have typically.  But, its salty, fatty doughy food.  And this afternoon I let it slip. 

I should have come home, ate some oatmeal and fruit, but I wanted ice cream, and Muscat Grape Gummies from the Chinese grocery, and then I wanted cheese with dinner.  That is the horrible continuation of last night terrible eating.

blah.

Food today:

1 WW Pita - 220
2T Peanut butter - 215
1.5T Jam - 150
coffee - 30

Dim sum - 800
9 gummies - 180

ice cream - 160

scrambled eggs - 155
cheese - 220
hot sauce - 0
pita - 220

total: 2,350

So I can already FEEL the salt building up in my body.  My feet are swollen and I'm headachey and puffy.  Great work there Tammy...way to be.   Monday is coming, time to up the water and work harder at controlling what gets in front of me.

Lunches at home this week, water and good breakfasts.  Buckling down.  I'm going to get three sets of my weights in tomorrow.   Yes Yes Yes!